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Divine Feminine Power

Divine Feminine Power (Photo credit: Kathy Crabbe)

I am reposting this from a year ago. I hope you like it: 

One ship drives east and the other drives west by the self-same winds that blow. It’s the set of the sails and not the gales that determine the way they go.

Ella Wheeler Wilcox

Sometimes we feel like the winds of fate continuously buffet us around, thwarting our every dream. We may fall into a deep depression and give up. Psychologists call this “learned helplessness”. It is important to note that what can be learned can be unlearned. We can choose at any moment to take our power back. It may not be easy, it may take time, but we can learn to control our lives again instead of drowning in our depressions. The point of power is in you and the key is Intention. We are made in the image and likeness of God; therefore we have all of God’s attributes, including power. We are powerful! All you have to do is claim that power and know that God is more powerful than any circumstance, internal or external that you may encounter.

Write down every situation that feels impossible for you to overcome. Then repeat after each one, “I AM more powerful than this.”

Non-Attachment

Non-Attachment (Photo credit: Chicago Man)

While growing up I learned at a very young age to not expect much from people and from life in general.  It was too painful to look forward to something and have it be taken away.  It wasn’t that I was totally deprived, however my mother often verbally abused me and she gave me the message that I was undeserving. One of her punishments was that I was never allowed to have a Barbie doll because when I was very little I accidentally broke my sister’s Barbie doll. I didn’t know that Barbie couldn’t move in certain ways and so I tried to make her straddle a model horse. Of course her legs broke off. Even though my mother knew what had happened, she assumed that I had broken the doll on purpose. She declared that I would not get a Barbie until I learned how to take care of toys. Ironically I had always taken good care of my toys.

This may sound like I am being a little whiney about something that small, but for me as a kid getting this doll was really important because it represented my mother’s forgiveness.  So it was a big deal to me. Year after year I waited and despite my taking very good care of my toys my mother refused to budge. She finally bought me a Barbie knock-off which was literally held together by rubber bands. So despite the fact that I did take good care of it, it broke very quickly. My mother did not buy me another doll.

So the message I got from my mother was that I did not deserve the kind of love and forgiveness that my sister had. Growing up I extended that feeling to the rest of the world. I didn’t make friends easily because I figured that they would hate me because I was such a horrible person. As an adult I was afraid to try new things on the job because of the fear of being judged. This resulted in me being in an entry-level job that I hated for twelve years. Dating was a bust because even in my one long-term relationship, I still didn’t feel worthy.

My approach for much of my life has simply been not expecting anything and then being surprised when I do get something. That actually sounds a bit spiritual since it resembles the words of the Buddha who taught equanimity and non-attachment to all things, both bad and good. But it is in fact very, very different from what the Buddha meant by non-attachment.

It is different because it is fear-based, It is based on the fear of disappointment and the fear that I am undeserving. Furthermore feeling undeserving is a guarantee that I will chase anything good out of my life.  So this is not non-attachment. It is an attachment to an emotion, fear. It is also an attachment to guilt, the feeling that I deserve to be punished.

Simply put, it is an attachment to a negative result.

True non-attachment is based on the fact of the non-permanence of reality-things change. Therefore enjoy the good, but know it won’t last forever. Endure the bad because it will not last forever, either. And don’t see every apparent bad thing as necessarily being bad because you never know, it might actually have a good-long term result.

In my next post I am going to explore the relationship between non-attachment and the Law of Attraction.

June Is Bustin Out All Over

June Is Bustin Out All Over (Photo credit: outdoorPDK)

Hi all! It will be my first anniversery doing this blog in June! So I am going to share some of my earlier posts with you this coming month in case you missed them. Here is the second half of my post My Bipolar Disorder: Curse or Blessing? (If you missed the first half you can read it here):

So in my last post I was talking about how we attract certain situations into our lives in order to learn from them. This has nothing to do with punishment or blame. It is about the Universe giving us another chance to get things rightread more here

Under the Weather

Helloo!.. Loving the rainy weather...

Helloo!.. Loving the rainy weather… (Photo credit: *SeniHome Photos*)

Hi Peeps!

I want to let everyone know that I am still here, but have taken a few days off due to a really bad sinus infection. Silly me, I tried treating it on my own and got in really bad shape before going to the urgent care. Everytime I get sick it just makes it much harder to recover from my chronic fatigue syndrome/fibromyalgia. Also to those that I have been corresponding with on your blogs, I haven’t forgotten you! I’ll get back to you when I can. In the meantime, I am coming up on my one year anniversery writing this blog so I thought I would share an earlier post. Enjoy!

My Bipolar Disorder: Curse or Blessing? Part One

I have discovered in the course of my journey that life and psychic growth move in cycling spiral rings of descent and ascent. Every new growth in myself has been preceded by a descent of the seed into the dark ground.

Linda Shierse Leonard

I believe that I have been given the experience of having bipolar disorder for a reason. It is here in my life to teach me. Now that doesn’t mean I am a Pollyanna about it. Far from it…read more

 

Psalm 137

Psalm 137 (Photo credit: Mouse)

One of the greatest problems that I have had my entire life is that I expect myself to be perfect.  This not only stems from my childhood but also from a culture that seems to demand perfection. Virtually every day I hear some celebrity saying that if I just take a positive attitude that all my dreams will come true seemingly without effort. There is a lot of talk about “The Law of Attraction” and if my life isn’t what it should be that it is somehow my fault because I haven’t thought the “right” thoughts.

Now let me make this clear: I am not totally against the concept of the Law of Attraction, but I am not sure that it always works the way many people seem to think. I think we attract into our lives situations that we need to learn from. I don’t think life is always meant to be easy. I also think that the subtle implication that if someone’s life sucks that it is their own fault is patently unfair and in fact a very uncompassionate and unspiritual point of view.

Even among those who don’t embrace the philosophy of New Thought, such as mainline Christians, there is a tendency to judge others when they are feeling down.  We are told that we have to “have faith” and if we don’t it is an affront to God.  I would challenge these people to read the book of Psalms, which is full of existential angst.  We often quote the inspirational parts of the book, however, the majority of it is actually quite pessimistic in nature. David was a man who was literally drowning in depression.

I have to admit that I often judge myself harshly for not being more positive, even though I know that I have this disease that at times makes this extremely difficult, even impossible. I feel like I should be better than this, even though I don’t expect that from any other people I know who have bipolar disorder. Even though I have dreamed of being a writer for a long time, I have held myself back because I felt that unless I could always be positive and have some piece of profound wisdom to give, then I would be a fraud. I am finding that the opposite is actually true, by being authentic and admitting that I don’t know all the answers, my writing is considerably more authentic and meaningful. I don’t have to be the expert, because I am simply sharing my journey with my readers. If there is something they get out of it then that is great, if not then they are free to look elsewhere for answers.

This seems to be a lesson that I keep having to learn over and over. When I was younger I had thought that I wanted to become a therapist. However I held myself back because I knew that I was really screwed up myself. I thought that if I became a therapist that I would be a “pretender” and a fraud. However, later on I had the opportunity to become a peer supporter with a local mental health center. This was not a professional position, but rather went along the lines of what the twelve-step groups do in that they share their “experience, strength and hope.” I jumped at the chance, because I did not have to be the “expert”. I could just be me.

The fact is that there is nothing wrong with having negative emotions because it gives us the opportunity to work with them and learn from them. I don’t have to be “Miss Mary Sunshine” all of the time.  I can be pissed off, depressed, sad, lonely, fearful etc. I can experience the whole gamut of emotions common to man as long as that doesn’t lead to destructive behavior on my part.

There is nothing spiritual about denying one’s thoughts and feelings. We should go easy on ourselves.  Life is about learning, not perfection.

Divine Feminine Power

Divine Feminine Power (Photo credit: Kathy Crabbe)

One ship drives east and the other drives west by the self-same winds that blow. It’s the set of the sails and not the gales that determine the way they go.

Ella Wheeler Wilcox

Sometimes we feel like the winds of fate continuously buffet us around, thwarting our every dream. We may fall into a deep depression and give up. Psychologists call this “learned helplessness”. It is important to note that what can be learned can be unlearned. We can choose at any moment to take our power back. It may not be easy, it may take time, but we can learn to control our lives again instead of drowning in our depressions. The point of power is in you and the key is Intention. We are made in the image and likeness of God; therefore we have all of God’s attributes, including power. We are powerful! All you have to do is claim that power and know that God is more powerful than any circumstance, internal or external that you may encounter.

Write down every situation that feels impossible for you to overcome. Then repeat after each one, “I AM more powerful than this.”

There are no great people, only great challeng...

There are no great people, only great challenges which ordinary people rise to meet. (Photo credit: wildphotons)

There are no great people in this world, only great challenges which ordinary people rise to meet. William Frederick Halsey, Jr.

Having  bipolar disorder is certainly a great challenge to overcome. Could it be that this is the reason we came to this earth, to overcome this great obstacle? The Universe does not give us a difficulty that we cannot conquer. You may feel that you are at the end of your tether and that there are no answers. The answers lie within you, and when you realize what it is you need to be well your energy will draw it to you. Letting go is a part of the process: prayer and meditation are the best ways to achieve this. Even if you don’t consciously know what you need, your Higher Self knows exactly what you require to recover. Just be receptive to whatever opportunities come your way. When you’ve found the right path you will know.

Close your eyes and envision the love of the Universe surrounding you. Imagine a long ceremonial parade of people coming to bring you brightly wrapped gifts. As you open each one, you see a misty vision rising out of the package. These visions represent what you need to be well. Your needs might be to have supportive, understanding people in your life. Or maybe to have a doctor who listens to you. As you identify each vision, see it becoming more solid, more real. When you can see these visions as concrete realities, then say to yourself, “I accept these things into my life. The Universe provides just what I need to be well”.

English: Tibetan endless knot Nederlands: Tibe...

English: Tibetan endless knot Nederlands: Tibetaanse Oneindige knoop (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

I have discovered in the course of my journey that life and psychic growth move in cycling spiral rings of descent and ascent. Every new growth in myself has been preceded by a descent of the seed into the dark ground.

Linda Shierse Leonard

I believe that I have been given the experience of having bipolar disorder for a reason. It is here in my life to teach me. Now that doesn’t mean I am a Pollyanna about it. Far from it. There are many times when I rail against my fate. I get angry at God and the Universe. It feels like I am the most cursed person in the world.  I feel like it is a punishment and if I could just atone for my sins that everything would be okay.

But on my better days I see that it has forced me to grow as a person. I say “forced” because quite frankly, it is very painful to go through. I don’t seem to be the type of person who changes easily.  Once I get in my comfort zone, I won’t budge. It mostly has to do with fear of being judged. I know where I want to be and what I need to do, but I become paralyzed by knowing that whatever I do it won’t be perfect.

Hermann Kuhn, quoting from his translation of the Tattvarthasutra, describes karma as “a mechanism that makes us thoroughly experience the themes of our life until we gained optimal knowledge from them and until our emotional attachment to these themes falls off.”

Now karma is not a punishment. It is a tool for learning from our mistakes. And it doesn’t have to come from a past life. It is a process that goes on in our daily lives all the time.  The Bible describes it as “As you sow, so shall you reap.”

Closely related to the idea of karma is the concept of “The Law of Attraction.” Basically it says that we attract certain experiences into our lives based on our thoughts and beliefs. So for instance if you want money or health, you can visualize this happening.  It has worked for a lot of people. It is a good idea as far as it goes, but ultimately I think that it is a self-serving ideology that appeals mainly to what the ego wants. And it places blame on those who go through the very real experience of suffering every single day.

I once asked a New Thought minister about whether he thought suffering has any value. He dismissed it by saying “Not if you think the right way.”  And yet he, just like everyone else, got sick from time to time. His way of describing a cold was as ” a cleansing process.” That made me laugh, and maybe seeing it that way did help him get better faster. But it was also a form of denial. A cold is still miserable no matter what you call it. Later on, his wife died of cancer.

The word EGO can mean “Edging God Out.”  The ego wants what it wants, and if it is in line with what Spirit wants then positive thinking can bring it about. On the other hand it can be a waste of time if you don’t pay attention as to why you are in your present situation. Sometimes it is best not to fight it, but instead surrender to what is.

So basically we attract into our lives situations that we need to learn from and they won’t go away until we get the message.

“Stay tuned” for the second half of my post 😉

Namaste  (“The Spirit in me sees the Spirit in you”)